Something people don’t know about. We almost broke 6 months ago. He served me with divorce papers. We almost lost us. There was soooo many years of built up shit between us. We came to a head, we fought, we screamed, we cried. And when the storm settled we came back together stronger than ever. Unbreakable.
I think we both had a strong sense of what we almost lost and made our choices.
On my end, I made the choice that I would do anything for him. The thing he needed from me was simple. He needed me to tear my walls down. He needed to know me, for me to be honest.
I don’t know what it is like to be married to a stranger. I know I caused him a lot of pain. So I let him see the worst of me, the bests of me, I told him how I felt. I told him everything. And now I tell him everything on a daily basis. I make it a point to say what I am thinking, even if I know it will piss him off.
On his part he finally figured out he had to let me go if he wanted me to stay. Like everything in his life, he has spent our lives together trying to make me happy by controlling. He never could understand why I wasn’t. And that was my fault. I never said the words I needed to loud enough. Maybe it is a good thing, maybe back then they wouldn’t have held the meaning they do now.
Now that we have been though hell and come out hand in hand, our words are true, they are the words of two people who have a bond unbreakable. Two people who have no space between them.